t h i s .

it's always weird when you remember someone that you once let yourself forget for a while. when you come across a name, or a picture, or just huge news. It brings you back to glimpses or moments of those people in your life with you--memorable ones, hurtful ones.

It always seems to surprise me when I learn that these people have metamorphasized into something way different than I ever expected. You think you know a person, till you find out they're dating this person now, or have this child now, or ended up on this path now. "This" represents surprising, unfortunate, eccentric, interesing--nonetheless, new. For a few seconds, it's bittersweet to remember someone, especially if they ever meant something to you. But then after analyzing the bigger picture, it's not so bad knowing, yeah that person was a needed part of my life and i've learned "this" much from them. But, if your "current" is better than that "past" then theres nothing to feel sorry about.

Yeah someone has previously affected you before, but it doesn't matter if you're satisfied with what youve got now. & Yes, it is awkward if you communicate again with someone you havent talked to in so long. And it's sure as hell not what it used to be. But thats a good thing. Because if nothing changed between you and whomever, then you wouldve never made it to where you are now.

I can point all the fingers and list all the names, and say you changed your personality, or your fashion, or your hairstyle, or your interests. But that would be silly, because when I look in the mirror, i've immensely changed as well...and for the better. It is always better that when you change, others change as well. Because you never want to look back with your new self and find the same people you knew. Bottom line, i'm startled, amused, bewildered with surprise. But Im entirely happy with the outcome of it all. Because without these experiences, these memories, long or short, it has shaped my character and my personality, and yours as well. this blog is about no one in specific but about many, many people i have simply remembered and let go again.

It's been a decade, a year, a long time ago, but you slip into my brain briefly, and i remember you, i remember us. And then i learn who YOU are now. And id like to believe that all of you are as happy with your outcomes as I am with mine. :)