Zachary Binx

My rat binx has outlived his lifespan. He's a little over 2 years old and although the vet told me months ago his first tumor would probably kill him, he's been a little fighter. Now he has like 3 really big tumors and theyre turning black and bloody, I think. It's so depressing. It practically breaks my heart every morning walking down the stairs and wondering if he's still gonna move when I call his name and it scares me to death as well. So I'm left with a predicament. Do i take it to the vet and put it out of it's misery? Is it even in misery? I mean the tumors don't look pretty, but it can't speak for itself. I hate feeling responsible for another life. I can't even take care of myself. And if he's fought this long...should I just keep letting him live? He still eats alot, and he runs around..as much as he can. But it kills me to watch him die slowly. To me, there's nothing more important in life...than life itself. And if I take him to the vet, he won't have a life anymore. But like I said, what am I supposed to do...wait for him to die? Anyways, a lot of people are really insensitive. Especially my friends, they say "ew, its a rodent" or "omg its just a cheap rat." But it's more than that to me. It was a pet that I cared for and had with me the last few years when things got really crazy and bad. It was just with me through it all, and i know death is inevitable, but it still sucks nonetheless to know it's going to be gone. And yeah sure, it's just a pet. But that doesn't make it inconsequential to me. I'd like to think that I care about the littlest things and the bigger ones. So i think i've decided to take it to the vet asap. Ahh, I hope i don't cryy like a baby again. :(